hey.
wow. have had three entries without titles in the past week alone..uncategorisable thoughts huh.
just did blog surfing again..hahaha.. i feel a bit bu4 dao4 de2 somehow.. to read a person's blog without being actually invited by that person..haha..:P shall promise to refrain from doing it (too often) in future....
i'm just tremendously touched at the moment.. never expected huang cheng to have made such an impact on these juniors... to think they never really showed it.... i never really knew.... i'm just really really, glad and touched that the experience ...mattered to them. ahh..just feeling really sad..or just jumbled up inside now...things flooding back...
somemore..today was just a crazy day...emotionally....how should i put it..stretching.
woke up really lousy. cos of a bleh talk with family last night. on what i really need to do as this point of my life. timing issues. priorities. realities.
went to school a bit higher. beautiful sky in the morning...and getting the audi for council elections lol.
then getting all bothered and somewhat upset by the proceedings of the election.
then mood stabilised a little.
then raised during gp cos of really funky game.
then died again somehow when the game ended and i found that i messed up lotsa things with my mad desires to win.
then raises in singing burfday song for jas and mao.
then dies almost immediately when discovered with cake slice in hand (and warned.) when hurrying up to huisuo.
then raised a little on seeing chouweis practising..:)
then mood stabilised. and on rebound in company of everyone.
hai. then dies. somehow. sometime.
hahahaha. gosh i just tracked my mood for the day. woohoo. how boliao.
then more things happen.
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am somehow feeling terrible. beginning to find that
it may not be that hard really, to uncover things to hate about yourself.
not a difficult task indeed.
for others to uncover them as well.
yay! big loser.
yay.. was looking thru stacks and stacks of old albums just now... photos of myself..my sisters..my parents when they were really young... thoroughly amusing..:)
and i think my dad tops my list of handsome men!!!! certified by whuiwhui, karent and co. too k?? :) got (bunch of) rgs-girls acknowledgment means got standard one ok?? lol. i mean his younger days lah...:) he's super cool!! :) really. hahaha...how he always tells me..in his mock-exalted tone "wo3 shi4 Sembawang di4 yi1 mei3 nan2 ok??" ...describing how the girls of his village cried buckets when he got married.. lol..and we'd all go yah yah yah. but he seriously looked good in those pictures...i'm just amazed..haha k lah.. should stop gushing bout my dad.. heehee. i sound mental. :)
i sensed he was a little sad just now as he looked thru the photos with me... going on bout how his glory days were over... haii. so sad eh.. we all grow old... makes me wanna stop complaining bout being pimply and round-faced at this stage in life anymore.
yeah.as you can see. day of emotional ups and downs loh.
and tmr i'll be preoccupied with thoughts of the queue i didnt go join.. the crazy dreams i decided to put aside...after a long period of dilemma. yup. timing issues. priority issues. as always..:'(
must learn to make the best of whatever's i choose to focus on at the moment. :)
still learning...
for now..xiaohuangcheng's the approaching highlight of my life...=) *excited beams*
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i fear the night is still young. for more things to happen.
posted by jias tham @ 11:48 PM
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