:.music for the soul.:

driving part1

realised its been a super long while since i actually blogged bout events..

been in a terribly bad mood these past few days getting flustered and flared up over small stuff easily.. and i think my memory's starting to deteriorate as the days pass...

gahh..the bluesfromnowhere have sneaked up on me again.

started playing FF7 again.. after what must have been a four year hiatus from computer games haha. ooh i found that i forgotten totally how much i enjoyed engaging in the amusing little things that happen in the game..

have decided that i shall not be kiasee as i was four years ago and be brave and start fighting more monsters and going around the place looking for special treats for Cloud and co.

hehe.

another prominent feature of my current jobless existence now would be my driving lessons.

today i had my second one.. which in my opinion..unfolded waayyy better than the first... when i almost rammed into two cars on seperate occasions due to my retarded limbs.. =S

the instructor on my first lesson was yawning at a rate of 5 times per minute and speaking at a speed of 10 words per minute.. hahaha.. i was really so saddened after the whole thing.

today's instructor put me so much more at ease.. was a really patient and gentle man..(THANK GOD) and i'm really really grateful for it... really saddened at the end of the whole thing too. but this time it's cos i knew it'd be hard to get him as my instructor again....

still a couple of hiccups with my clutch-accel coordination.. jerky car every now and then.. haha.. i am progressing soooo slowwww--ly with my course... only did 5 parts in two lesons and there's 30 plus in total for completion...

=( quite demoralised.. but will try and push on. haha.

going out of the circuit next lesson! gosh. i AM terrified.

i am also helping my fourth aunt teach her P2 class to do a cheer display for a competition! pretty fun.. kids are cute but i'm racking my brains quite a bit trying to come up with ehh uhh nice movement/actions/rhythm for the hyper bunch...

havent done directing in a loong while.... and it got a bit intimidating when i was suddenly shoved to face all thirty of them on the hall stage last week.. made to think up something for them to do on the spot...


"Reduce...Reuse...Recycle!"

hahaha yeah its for the environment! funny the kinds of competitions they design for school kids these days...

tmr's my second session with them..in which they hope everything can be finalised... (gulp)

haha i just hope my aunt and her colleagues and the kids' parents dont find my actions stupid..

meanwhile i've been reading up and thinking about Australia/Taiwan...bout whether i really am destined to be a loafer for life... bout whether an overseas education is but an impractical dream...bout what i really wanna do with my life.

took a couple of career tests here and there.. somehow the results i get just spur me on to search for more and more tests... is it that i refuse to look at myself the way these tests have portrayed me? even if its most realistic and accurate?

i hate running away. but i do.

posted by jias tham @ 8:45 PM