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today went borders to spend our voucher... the eighty bucks our national day songwriting group won.. heh.. yayYAY got my illustrated Da Vinci Code...:) nice nice book.sent my phone for service again.. since the last time it has refused to be rid of its flashing tendencies.. :P haf parted with it for about seven hours now... boohoo..
i thinki'm gonna launch into something terrible right now.. something that i just need to vent.. hope it doesnt offend anyone.........................though might be difficult........... the ironies of the blog.
i hate to do this because it means yet another depressing entry.
STOP.
now.
(sometimes i just feel..) Enough.
i dun see it HOW it makes any of us STRONGER.. when all u do is come down upon us. every. single. time. lashing out at us. let everything crumble. let it all fall apart. soldiers with wounded prides may do fiercer battle.. but its not the world we're fighting for. we're fighting..haha..you?
these are scraps, bits, pieces of sincere creativity, for goodness sake. you're insulting our intellect, their very soul. telling us you think our efforts lowly. thats not getting us anywhere.
thats not what we need from you.
perhaps we're childish. inexperienced.
ought to understand that whatever u do or say is for the best.
every single thing we've done will never perfectly satisfy you. every imperfection deserves criticism. we know.
nothing can be perfect can it? is perfection the only thing we strive for in our endeavours?
the one most abominable..regrettable thing is that one does not want to put in his best..
surely it takes more than blatant criticism alone.. to pick someone up,
..to help someone along as they grow?
one mutter from you and our world's shattered. haha we're such weak fools arent we.
yet it shatters us more to know you dun have faith in us.. than that we didnt do a good job as we thought we did.. xin1 han3- is one phrase i never really knew until this year.
thank you for being there all this while..
but is there nothing more u can say?
give us a break for once.
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yeah.. another sad entry again. hais.
just wanna say dun hafta worry yeah if u are.
i'm a da4 xi3 da4 bei1 (big happiness, big sadness) kind of person so... it'll blow over soon..
really hope i dun affect u people out there too much.
sighs. just need to let off steam at this place once in a while.. haha am i saying too much of such stoopid stuff?
guess sometimes i am the one who brings these troubles upon myself.
woohoo. i feel like bouncing about. TAG people. my tagbox is lonely.
ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINMEI!
posted by jias tham @ 11:50 PM
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