update of my life.
hey..i never wanted to curse so much. haha. grrr.
been working at a childcare next to mavis this past five days...
waaah first i thought it was the kids i couldnt tahan..
then gradually got used to them and came to have a better feel of the extent of reasoning capabilities they possess... how i shouldnt feel angry and try to scold/whack so often because they REALLY wouldnt understand..... sigh.
4 hrs in a confined space with fifteen 2-4yr olds/twenty 5-6yr olds every day is more than enough to drive anyone up the wall.
especially the young ones... they're just like little shrieking lifeforms on two feet whose only programmed capacity at this stage of their lives is to DESTRUCT. Running is the necessary mode of travel. Feet stomping, arms flailing, the tiny things go about their routine activities, punctuating their acts of Destruction with menacing guffaws, stupefying screams and the all-powerful Bawl... leaving a trail of drool and mucus in the wake.
where better than a montessori, to get abundant material for a B-grade horror flick?
haha. with mavis' and another laoshi's guidance, thankfully i kinda managed to overcome my frustration/irritation/annoyance with them and stopped having desires to break their necks by mid-week.
the real terror of the job however. had been quietly settling in on me from the second day of work.
The boss.
is an amazing woman.
i'm really not kidding. when i say she's an adult with one of the most unfathomably incorrigble temperaments i've ever encountered ever i since i outgrew my own nuisance-lifeform state and developed a brain.
thinking about the kind of mental torment i'd been exposed to(and only minimally for me man compared to mavis and laoshi)...i feel really, really sorry for the kids.
she's really not a bad teacher at all.. takes her work seriously..is generally not unfriendly when conversing with people. i reckon anyone who views her lessons and how she livens up e classes for the children wouldnt really think her a bad person.
guess thats why the first blast i got from her was so hard to swallow..
i witnessed how she'e entirely capable of trampling on even her close working partner of two years, with utterly patronising comments and condescending glares.
it's as if the everyone else is inferior, meant to bear her scoldings and lecturing because she descended upon the world to lead and correct incompetent fools who make utterly atrocious mistakes and who are out to destroy her childcare centre.
then maybe an hour later when she's out of THE mode, she's all warmth and smiles again. ccncerned about whether u're coping ok.. whether the kids are giving u too much trouble..telling u she's really thankful for ur help. u've been excellent.
it really freaks me out......
if she reads this i reckon i'm gonna be crushed by her mercedes. haha ok. her amazing somersaulting attitude makes me wanna put her down for being like, chao rich, but i realised i'd just seem bitter and petty.
actually i'm just really really, more sad than angry. for long-suffering laoshi and mavis.. and the little ones..
the working world just got a tad bit darker for me.
hahaha.. oh my goodness think this is the most amount contempt i've ever penned down openly...
the stint has sorta opened a little window into the larger world outside for me.
there are the lessons to be learned, especially in the area of dealing with crap from pple.
(sigh. i think i'm gonna be depressed.)
and also, how great working company makes a whole world of a difference.
thankful for mavis.:) she's really one strong girl to have braved it all.
posted by jias tham @ 11:31 PM
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