Missing MAF.
can u believe it? i never saw the moon ONCE this maf. =(touted to be the largest in 7 years... besides the fact tt i couldnt literally step out of the house guess the haze made it all the more elusive. haha. so no matter which way i stuck my neck out of the living room window.....it wasnt there. the smell of the air was unforgettably bad that friday night. the kids were crazy screaming like someone was after them with a barang just like every year..setting the whole pavement on fire as they ran. haha. from where i was.. it was still a rather pretty, albeit hazy sight. reminded me of my childhood escapades at the playground.. my fascination with candles and fire.. i dont remember when the obsession stopped, or when my mum stopped telling me to be careful cos I could burn myself easily.
haha how i rem how my p5 classmates had a leetle maf gathering..at Bishan park. lol. the bunch of us practically took over the playground there and chased all the other kids away when we played catching. so fun so fun! as a stupid bossy kid i also had an obsession with catching and murderer (the old-fashioned blindfold one) and pestering every kid until they were willing to play with me. To this day i still cant really understand how i managed both at the same time - the enjoyment of the exhilaration of escaping from the Catcher and the gripping, mortal fear of being chased by a semi-demon and getting caught to be banished.
haha somewhere along the way i discovered the banality of it all and gave up playing.
last saturday's was the second hc maf i have missed. last yr cos econs cramming got the better of me. this year because of a single clumsy move. 6th week and counting.
dang. its gonna be a year more. and i have this feeling that i will feel more like a stranger... less compelled to go somewhat..
and i wont see so many ppl until what's going to feel like an eternity later. a12...beloved lep/huangcheng frens... dear seniors... frens frens frens.
since coming to uni.. i suddenly realised how very tied to providence the growth of your friendships are...that most pple walk into your lives to be cherished... for whatever big or small impact they are going to have on your life..for however certain or uncertain they are of ever crossing paths with you again. thats why i'm thankful for the dining hall uncles who lament to me about the horrible work load, and tells me he wishes i will be able to sing again soon. tutorial classmate who waves goodbye to me from afar and tells me to take care even though we've never spoken much before. the girl from science who ran up to me and asked if i needed help finding a lift. the taxi driver who chats with me on politics and america, and tells me to take care.
and a while ago, the cleaner auntie at hwachong who held my hand and kind of.. told me to study hard and tt she was glad to see me (haha, u guessed it. she's the sometimes scary indian auntie at the right wing).
haha i'm feeling all mushy-sentimental today am i? totally not concerned about impending project report deadlines and the trouble i'll be getting my project mates into for not being able to complete my part of the fieldwork w/o the use of my left foot.
sigh. Reality bites!
haha i better run and be back again next time. :)
ooh wait. hall comms interviews are here! i'm having trouble choosing and weighing how heavy everything might be or not be. really see the truth in this saying given to me by this obs instructor.. There's no moment of absolute certainty. that we just got to make the best decision based on what we have and know. i'm horrible at that. yikes. I'm thinking there's got to be a very simple truth behind everything. yet why do i find it so hard to listen to it? believe sometimes its really gonna help me a lot with my decision-making : Just do what makes you happy.
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