grouch muses.
waah the week finally passed.. after all that happened on thurs and fri.. i almost thought it was never going to...haais..something wrong with me in the later half of the week.. been somewhat irritable and irrational...extremely clumsy in talkin to people.. offended the whole world apparent..shall see my name recorded in some list of world-hates. :(
must curb the use of expletives... haha.. really sorry to my friends who've had to bear with my outbursts when they just came.. arghhH.
i dunno why so many things are going wrong in school..... k..maybe not wrong things..just unhappy, unsettling ones...
was i being overly altruistic over the x- country episode?.. going on with all my talk about how its just a "for the class" thing...thats just a "go and have fun" thing..that it doesnt take much sweat (err only in the literal sense) to put ur name down and just go for it... pained me quite a bit when all i got were "Whatever" looks.. and "why dont YOU go and join?" looks..
so the same episode repeats itself as with last year. its the rise of the Just Send Whoever Bothers, Cause-I-certainly-Dont Principle! (bring on the pearls and cip hours! napfa As! *waves shining graduation certs*)
yah i'm being a b... here..
again..i'm just venting. i know i myself have my misdeeds..and probably a part to blame.... know everyone else was unhappy and angry in some way as well..
haii....maybe i was wrong in my thinking maybe i dont really know whats going on at all..
at least its kinda all blown over now...
though i dont really know if we may be shoving more fundamental problems under the carpet again..its gonna be catastrophic housekeeping when things, erupt. one day.
sigh.
the dynamics of our class... have my ideals been too warped? or..... am I warped to be so idealistic in the first place?
i really have to sort out my thinking and grow up soon.
yah..so the week just kept going downhill from there.. with me finding fault and losing my temper at everything.. badmouthing people..(insert anything)..bossing others..demanding not negotiating with others like for venues (sorry, sorry, sorry.)... yah..became a wreck and became the newest addition to the world-hate list haha...or simply reaffirmed my original place there. hohoho..
sighs.
haha kk theres a lot of rubbish rattling. shall stop uttering nonsense bout the week past...
just hope everything will be better. for the days, for the weeks, and months ahead. everything.
hey..if u've had a horrendous week too..hope u'll believe that it wont get any worse from there..
tomorrow will be better!.. haha.. hang in there k :)
yes.. have a happy pre-cny week. (:
posted by jias tham @ 12:17 PM
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