:.music for the soul.:

state of semi-consciousness

have been feeling the drawbacks of idealism and over-enthusiasm progressively each day..with numerous events, happenings, developments (or lack of them), occurences..news..(blah..)
maybe i've been living in my own bubble wrap for too long..rose-tinted glasses need a re-adjustment..

but i'm not depressed lah i think... was kinda prepared for a gradual "awakening" of some sort....or non-awakening... i dont know.. these inexplicable times...

gets tiring somewhat so u decide to shut urself to everything and just look at what u feel like looking at..

hmm..maybe i'm supposed to sweep it all away by saying....:
this is life?

i still remain somewhat optimistic.. strange-ly..i mean in some corner of my heart and brain..

still have urges to be crazy and bouncy and smiley and laughterrr-y at the wrongest times possible.. dont know why.

hope its more a good thing than a bad.... :P

but in the end.....do i really think i know what i'm experiencing..just.. Life?..i mean.. do i really understand what it is to brush it all aside like that...

truth is i think i dont..
am probably just seeking the convenient way out.

...

niwae..huangcheng work officially began two days ago...
the beginning is always rough..
may even be..a little tougher this time than ever before..
its been hard on everyone.. must keep going strong k? =)

[hang on.]

posted by jias tham @ 10:45 PM