happy new year!
ushering in the year of the rooster!happy cny everyone :)
haha..i'm feeling tired.. its quite sad.. like lala..i was trying to do homework yesterday night..but gave up after a while.. just couldnt squeeze any coherent sentence out for my lit essay. haha..haish.
eve of new year was quite fun..:) funky wushu and stuff at celebrations..being bombarded by juniors at the street market..then orchard escapade with zhiqi, kokhong, mavis and lala. :) haha.. quite an experience. just walking reeeeally fast, zipping from one place to another as we trailed behind the fast and zappy lala on the hunt for the perfect pair of shoes for cny. then walking, talking. haha. gossiping..:P shhH. there was humour.. surprise.. entertainment..shock. haha. gah.. i'm one big kaypoh person. really glad to have been able to spend quality time with friends.. esp when our lives have been increasingly frentic, dizzying, emotionally taxing.. such times become so very rare and precious.
i'm really quite impaired socially.. realise i cant even make proper conversation with my own cousins..which is why i really dread going to family gatherings sometimes.. often find myself at a loss of what to do..cept to keep following my sisters around.. do whatever they do, listen in to their conversations with others.. but i guess it was worse last time.. when i couldnt even look them in the face properly to wave and say hi. haha. lousy kid i was. maybe it takes me quite some time to warm up to people(hah hmm dunno if fwens in school think differently:P)..only see my cousins and all just once a year lah..doesnt help that i was also a totally dislikable brat as a kid..just a lot of things put together culminating in the state of affairs today i guess..haiish.
haha kk its new year shouldnt look at things so negatively...
been thinking bout so much these days haha i dont know why.. the bad thing is i just keep going round in circles and when i dun find the answers, i turn to stuffing myself with food. cookies, chocolates, bananas, milk, biscuits..thats how its been. at least for the last two weeks it has been so. hais. smacks me silly self.
time to learn to let go of the sad reins of the past..
gotta give myself time though.
dunno where everything's headed now.. so many things to do.. so many more things i want to do..cant seem to get around them..feeling unusually unsettled and all...
shall set out to get responsibilities at hand sorted out first. bleh. must curb the sian-ness that i've been feeling....
yupp arrhhH should cut the weird thoughts now.. haha
yuppp
*have a great new year dears* =) eat more, rest well, get more angpao! -beams-
cant wait for friday's dinner date with da buddies! :) haha..til then, take care fwens (:
posted by jias tham @ 1:45 AM
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