:.music for the soul.:

checking in on life.

haha i'm amazed..

culture night and voices showcase in the same week last week! haha. was loads of fun but i cant imagine how i did it. i thank the heavens above for helping me last and enjoy myself at the same time.

was just exhuasted after culture night i didnt take enuff photos:( but aca comm prepared pizzaaa for us!! wheee and they very sweetly celebrated the oct/nov birthdayss... :D was overall pretty happy to have not shivered too badly on sometimes and happy together.. though i really think i could have performed more stably for the latter:( :( felt really terrible that night. think sesame street didnt come out as well as i hoped to and i messed up the beginning section!!!

but am still really really thankful for all the great encouragement and support showered by my friends after the showw haha. the block folks got us all balloons with our faces plastered on the front!!! my photo was so gross ahaha but i was highly tickled.

anyway it was an experience that i know will last for quite a while. :)

haha i was having so many misgivings and fears abt the voices showcase on thurs i tell ya.. i barely practised bcos of culture nite.. we never really had a full tech rehearsal... never ran thru everything.. basically no one saw each other's item in full before the showcase... i believed i was going to make a fool of myself ahehe...

but i think its really amazing. that i actually had quite a fun time in the end! ahaha....:) the spirit of my fellow members was there.. we sort of trusted each other.. the tech crew the band.. generally took pride in our performances on stage and did our best and had faith.. it turned out pretty memorable.. haha.. thank heavens once again. also dear lingchee for being my dear performance consultant just 2 hours before the showcase. i sometimes feel very very reliant on her in many ways.. haha but thats another story.

and the world is getting smaller. half an hour before i heard from vernon abt py coming and subsequently abt my grp mate yikit being jt and sd's BEST fren....things like these seem to be happening quite frequently in my life these days! ahaha. its all very heartwarming somehow. to noe how the world might actually be one big happy family in some way. heh :)

yeah i guess being in a good relaxed mood helps for a performance too..for a while i was frustrated over my neverending spring tests like the crazy TS one on the day of the showcase itself.. i never get enuff time to myself these days and i feel really constricted and tired. so when the ts one was completed i was able to breathe for a while and look forward to the weekend. :)

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was also dealt with sad news closer to the weekend..
i'm really quite bad at dealing with sadness.

on fri i received news that my uncle was admitted into hospital..fighting what may be his last fight against cancer.

dont know what else to do but to pray.

i've been trying to live as per normal but i find myself struggling to maintain a state of peaceful calm and fulfilment in life these days.. lately it seems a bit harder.. to stay happy for long.

posted by jias tham @ 8:40 PM